Ok..ok..i have come to terms that I have a bad sugar addiction and I can’t for the life of me get rid of it. Joey and I are supposed to be eating healthier and exercising more. We try not to buy “crap” at the store and have been really good about it. I bring a peanut butter sandwich, yogurt and fruit to work almost everyday which is prevents me from buying “crap” that surrounds me in downtown Bellevue (expensive too). I also try to exercise daily weather it is going for walks on my lunch breaks or doing Cardio or balance ball workouts at home. So far I have been pretty good. I have lost 10 pounds since March…yea!!!
HOWEVER, even though I don’t go out and buy sugary things to eat, when it is offered I can’t seem to pass it up. I have no will power. Sometimes at work we have birthday celebrations or other celebrations (basically any excuse to bring in goodies for everyone to share). Last week was the celebration for the May birthdays and someone brought in Costco cupcakes. These are probably the best cupcakes known to man. Just picture the Costco size muffins and turn it into a cupcake with amazing frosting. When I went to see if anyone brought in “healthy” food I eyed those lovely cupcakes but quickly passed them up and filled by plate with fruit and veggies. But after I was done eating my “healthy” food I kept thinking about those damn cupcakes and how good they looked. So, with my weak will power I ate half a cupcake. Keep in mind that half a cupcake is still bigger than a regular cupcake and I ate it with joy. After I was done eating it I was mad at myself and went on a walk on my lunch break. The walk didn’t erase me eating that cupcake totally but I was trying to justify me eating the stupid thing. And today there was a baby shower celebration and surprise, surprise there was cake. While I didn’t attend the celebration, my boss brought by a piece of cake for me to eat. With out thinking I said yes I would like a piece and quickly devoured it. Again, I am very mad at myself. Why? CUZ I HAVE NO WILL POWER. IF IT’S OFFERED I HAVE TO EAT IT. RAH. Everyone at work also has stashes of bite size candy at their desks. I have gotten better about not taking a piece everyday, but for a while it was bad. Sometimes I would take two or three pieces. I hadn’t taken a piece for a while and yesterday I cracked and had a bite size snickers. GRRRR.
There are many more instances of me eating sugary things that I know I shouldn’t. But I seriously think those things purposely taunt me. They are saying, “Anna…Anna…you know you want to eat me.”….ahhh….I think I am going crazy. I also think I need to go to SA (sugar addiction) meetings…or I just need to find a job where people don’t bring in goodies that taunt me.
Happy 6th Birthday Jovie!
6 years ago
2 comments:
Oh, it's pointless to even try! Trust me. It's not just you. Just eat healthy things all day and supplement with one sugary "treat".
At least you had only one half of a cupcake. You didn't have three of them. And having a small piece of candy once in a while isn't going to hurt you. Having a big one at every meal is going to be bad. But I think you're doing ok! And you be looking good! ;-)
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